Chemotherapy Side Effects – Hair Loss Pt. 2

I’ve always wanted to shave off my hair but never had the guts to. For some reason I felt that it’ll be “a liberating experience”. So much so that I’d constantly joke with my husband about it, asking him if he’d still find me attractive if I was bald.

Well, joke’s on me then.

I didn’t lose all of my hair though. There were still some areas where there’s hair left. But mainly bald spots. And since I’ve shaved it off my hair stayed super short for a while.

The worst part I suppose was that my head would get chilly, because I don’t have enough hair to cover the scalp. And in turn, I get headaches. Does that make sense? I even wore a small scarf inside the house and when I sleep, because that’s how cold my head got.

Now I desperately want my hair to grow back. Not too long, just shoulder length like what I’m used to.

A friend even recommended to me a list of hair products that could supposedly aid with hair growth. I didn’t get around buying them because 1) I was lazy, and 2) someone else told me using hair products too early on could clog my pores or something. So I patiently waited.

How do I leave the house, you may ask? I don’t. Partly because I have self-esteem issues, but largely because my immune system is still very weak at this point so doctors don’t recommend that I go to crowded places. We only go to the park on weekends to cycle around the lake. And when I go out, I had a scarf on and a cap on top of it. That was my outfit for months to come.

I was too lazy for wigs. Plus, those really nice ones are expensive. My condition is supposed to be temporary anyway so I didn’t bother with it. I only had a wig + cap thingy which I’ve recently graduated from.

Also, I would later learn that whenever I’m wearing my wig + cap, I should put a little cloth underneath the cap. Otherwise my head would get really sweaty.

My style eventually evolved, from girly skirts to comfy sportswear, in order to complement the cap.

In conclusion, it is not fun to be bald.

Oh. My husband and I were still having sex even after I went bald. I guess I got the answer to my question – yes, he still found me attractive without hair. Or maybe he was just really horny LOL!

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