Chemotherapy Side Effects – Physical & Mental Lethargy

– November 2023 // Chemotherapy session 1/4 –

My body felt like it got run over by a train a hundred times over. There was something that hurts somewhere each day. Just when I thought that it couldn’t get any worse, guess what? It did.

I was so sleep deprived for an entire week. I would wake up every two hours to either drink water or go pee or because my lower back is aching from lying down all day. Mentally, I felt like a zombie. All I ever tried doing was to get proper sleep.

The house was a mess because I couldn’t bring myself to clean anything. I just didn’t have the strength to. My husband helped, of course. But he’s still not putting the dishes at the “right” places, or he’s not folding the clothes the “correct” way. But I guess that’ll do for now, and I appreciate having him around. It’s really easy to feel entitled just because we’re fighting cancer, but let’s not go down that road. I had to constantly remind myself to be thankful for any type of support that I receive. And to be less grumpy in general haha.

I wish more people knew and are more mentally prepared for chemotherapy. Especially if you’re in the early stages like me and your oncologist also suggested chemo.

I wish more people knew that it’s normal to feel crappy all week. Because this is what you are guaranteed to get. Just remember, everything shall pass and there’s light at the end of the tunnel.

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