– November 2023 –
One night before bed, I decided to check in with my husband to see how’s he holding up. I wanted to know his mental state as he’s going through all this with me. Was I whining too much and made him worry? Was he silently suffering? But I didn’t want him to suffer or worry.
I read somewhere that cancer spouses often get burnouts from having to fill the void of their partner. I didn’t want that for my husband. He doesn’t deserve it.
He still goes to work as usual during the day, but checks in on me every now and then.
When he’s back from work, he would help with chores around the house.
Seeing him like this gives me strength. I want to do better. I want to be better.
At this point, I’m thankful that we don’t have kids yet. God knows what I’ll put the innocent child through with my illness. I don’t want to be a weak parent. I don’t want them to see me suffer. Not to mention the extra strain that will put on my husband.
We’ll get through it together, he assured me.
Thanks, love.
Cancer At 35 
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